Don't get me wrong, thank you for telling me those compliments, I really do appreciate them. But until I look in the mirror and see the body I want and make choices I want, those compliments are empty. Sound rude? Maybe. But it's the truth. I don't think you are lying, but it's not where I want to be with myself.
I am a mom and a wife. I take care of two tiny humans all day long. Wiping butts, cleaning snacks off the floor, cooking, laundry, hearing meltdowns...the list goes on and on. I get cuddles, I breastfeed, I read books and play legos, trains, crayons...so much in one day. Not much time for myself. And I understand that. I signed up to be a wife and mom. I knew what I was getting myself into. Sharing myself with 3 other people is my life and I wouldn't change it for the world. But I can also be selfish and want to share myself with...myself.
I want to be healthy and workout. I like to try new recipes. I love to take pictures. I want to be able to set a good example for my kids by making good choices. I'm doing this for myself to be a better person. For myself. And those 3 other people I share a roof with. All four of us are my motivation.
I did not become a coach to bug people on facebook. Yes, I will post food recipes and me working out and me drinking Shakeology. But I did all of this before. This isn't something new. I post pictures and statuses all the time. I will still post pictures of my kids and of my "treats". And yes, I will have treats and cheat days. I will not be perfect.
Notice all the "I's" in my post? I'll just reiterate it's because I want to do it. I will not private message you about becoming a coach. I will post motivation memes and quotes. I will probably promote myself in some way. Even though I am on this journey for me, if it helps others...fantastic. If you want help, or recipes, or are interested in Beachbody, of course, I will help. just let me know. Come to me so I don't bother you. Sorry if the posts might get annoying. If you really hate it, unfriend or unfollow. Do what you need to do. I will understand completely.
With all that said, I am so excited to be on this journey. You can either hate it, like it, tolerate it, care less, whatever. It will not bother me one bit. Please understand my reasoning. It is a selfish one. I am still going to be the same Jennifer...maybe even a better version. Can't fault me for that, right?
